How To Start Planning My Creative Future While Watching The Simpsons

It has felt like forever since I took the time to sit down and write without going outside to find inspiration. It’s a very sweet feeling, knowing I can still do it.

Anywho…recently, my retail job and watching early seasons of The Simpsons have taken up most, if not all, of my time. I had never seen an episode of the Simpsons until this year and now I’m addicted. It’s like a meteor of stupid and relevant humor landed in my lap and I can’t get rid of the stains, no matter how hard I try. So far, my favorite seasons are 3, 5, 6, and 8 and I go on amazon a lot to find others. BUT I am working on pumping out the creative drive I once had three weeks ago. It may not seem like a long time, but if you’re like me, if I go three days without having some thought to write down and express out, something is very wrong.

*I mean, look how inviting and happy they look*

The weird thing is that besides little arguments with my mom, life has been treating me well. I’ve been taking it easy for a bit because I’ve had one too many creepy guys hit on me and ask for my number whether I’m out alone or with friends. The guys who are trying to hard to look like “a man” and are over half my age make going out unbearable at times for me. I write at a bar to get away from personal bullshit, not to get to know yours. BUT the good news is that in my second notebook, I have written 30 poems! The other pages are for short stories from “the college years” that I’m writing and planning out, which is great because I’m exploring other avenues I want to pursue with my craft.

I’m considering starting a food blog over the summer. The goal is to start in a month or so and I’m thinking that it’s going to be restaurant reviews on Olive Street in St. Louis. I believe that it will allow me to get out more, socialize with people in a different and fun way, eating good food (always a plus), and writing. What could be better, I haven’t thought that far yet. BUT the biggest discover that has finally been decided; focusing on writing in Graduate School. Life is short to try and be something I’m not. I’d love to learn and focus on creative, argumentative, article writing, or even content writing if the content is interesting enough. My parents were shocked when they found out I want to go to grad school. It’s going to happen because it’s something I’m going to pursue heavily.

While it is nice to take time out and figure out what you want, one must never lose sight on what matters most to you.

You’re Worth It. Period.

Fresh Off The Presses

So the good news is that this month is finally over. I’ve been having job interviews, which is nice because people are interested in me. I’m beginning to realize though, the difference between what words they use to motivate me and the reality of what the position is. Which is usually a crap, dead-end job that I see myself becoming very unhappy. I sat at the Central West End in St. Louis, thinking to myself after the hiring manager greets me, “I am worth so much more than what they told me.” So I left the interview, sat a little cafe, and started to write like a writer again. And it was so damn refreshing.

Wanting More

Today, I had a thought,

as I sat in the uper cool

and waiting pop-out art room,

‘I’m worth more than this.’

I would rather be loved,

than entry level management,

untamed and uninhibited, 

than unexcited about a boring job I’ll hate,

focus on parts of me to fix and perfect,

instead of sections of sales. Yuck.

This interview can suck it,

without hesitation,

worry about the client,

the nauseous ponder

on marketing through a telephone,

I can honestly tell you all–

that I didn’t need to worry’

wanting to be more than

a no body at the office.